As following decision, the I have decided also that the second music album production has been canceled and will remain unreleased.

You have nothing to say about this cause I’m the producer, maybe you’re fans, I have to take risks, so you will accept my decision or not, I don’t care.

To announce something far more interesting, I have quit music production completely.

Have a nice day!

Just starting to get involved in more serious work and fixing some technical difficulties on the game, and attempting to compose some new tracks so I can release the album before the end of the year, if possible.

Mostly focusing on finishing the school year right now, cause there are only 7-8 days left until I finish.

I don’t know about you but I can’t wait for the summer to pass. I am kinda fucked up I know LOL.

I prepared the equipment, now it’s only a matter of time until I release new tracks.

Have fun. Something big is about to happen.

I’ll have to focus on the game and on what I want to do to make the time pass quick and make the summer go.
Life of a artist is absolutely hard, you have to make sacrifices, and if I have to sacrifice my career for my family, I will do it without any regret.

Don’t get me wrong, for me my girlfriend is the most important, not the career.
So counting a list of what I want to do this summer:

Work on the game

Work on the music album

Work on photoshop sketches

Work on videos and animations

Plan for a movie production

Work on random software 

Learn C++

/>… Grab Mountain Dew [hahahahaha this is what I always do]

Do school related bullshit [I might do this shit]

Wait for the summer to end

All my fans have been waiting for songs, well I planned to wait for the summer to come since I have inspiration now and everything will be much more incendiary than before.

Ok that’s all for now.

Everything I end up doing wrong or getting her upset, I appologize even if it’s not the case, for me any chance of appologizing counts.

I don’t like making mistakes, most of the times and the things I’ve learned come from mistakes, but for me it’s easy to accept her mistakes but not mine. I don’t like making any sort of mistake in front of her, anything that could get her upset, but the real thing her is the fact that we are both very kind with each other and we do understand and forgive us for any mistake we make.

On almost everydate (in rare cases I can’t) I grab her a beautifull rose and show her my appreciation to all the moments she spent with me and all the wonderfull feelings she has expressed trough her lips and tears, trough her hands without fear, her true love for me is the best proof, something that words alone cannot prove.

I truly love her, I know that this summer I won’t be able to see her, since she is from another country and there is absolutely no chance to have a face to face contact, but for me, knowing that she is close to her family and friends and that she is home and happy, it means much for me.

I am Romanian, a man with a soul that has reached the hearts of many I know, I choosed to be different from the one’s I’ve been told, I seen trough my eyes what cannot be shown. I feel that my heart is left to be shared, with one single girl I will eternal love, that girl is Dorina.

She’s Moldovian, a girl with a soul so pure and so bright, the most rare I’ve ever saw. Our souls and hearts picked each other when we both least expected, our destiny and our souls, were once ressurected. We felt no fear, no shame, just truth, we were wondering how will this love get proved, I knew the answers, I had to give them to her, now were togheter, for eternity and above.

I truly love you Dorina and promise me you will never forget, I will be the one you’ll always touch and that will get you rid of all your fears and regrets.

This should be a important lesson to all, repair your mistakes no matter how much it takes, do what it takes or you’ll end up in regrets.

True love exists, it just comes with the least expected people and ways.

So I can say I spent my Apocalypse on a date, it was very relaxing and absolutely perfect.

What about you?

Seriously, who the fuck would believe in such a stupid thing? A announced Judgement Day… LOL!!!! This is ridiculous!
Even God believers and non believers know that the Apocalypse will come but UNNANOUNCED, meaning we never know when or what will happen.

If we knew, would people care? Nope, not all of the people care…

We have a bunch of scam profets that are absolutely 100% sure that everything is (not) as they said, and when the moment of truth cames, the answer is OMG I GOT BITTEN BY A FUCKING ZOMBIEEEEHHH AAAAAARHGHHHHHH HHHH FUUUCKKK IT HURRRRTTTSSSS BLAAAARRGGHHHH BRAAAAAAAAINNNNNNZZZZZZZZ MUSTTTT EEEAAAAT BRAAAAAAAINNNNZZZ….

Oh where was I? Oh yeah, OMG A BIRD SHIT ON THE PAVEMENT WERE ALL DOOOMEEED!

Now seriously people, I am a God believer, but even the Bible says that no one knows except God.

All I can tell you is that the Apocalypse is tomorrow at 5 PM when your grandma grabs a shotgun and kills your cat for eating your homework.

See? No one gives a shit about all the lies, no one knows when the Apocalypse comes except God, of course I lied about the upper sentence LOL we are just making fun of those who dare to say that UUUU I KNOW THE APOCALYPSE HAPPENS UUUU

Ok smartass, if you know when the apocalypse happens, what proof you have? Absolutely none, because nothing in the world contains at least the smallest clue about Apocalypse’s Day and Time, except what is going to happen, and I tell you people were not gonna become zombies LOL.

I’ll make sure that I won’t miss the next “Apocalypse”:D

Have fun trolls.

I was born on March 19 year 1994, the doctors gave me no chance to live, they said I was going to be mentally ill and with disabilities after birth.

Truth is, I had a few health problems but nothing of which they claimed, I was just like any other normal child, some minor complications and stuff.

My childhood was absolutely horrible. I grew up in fear, my dad has been a important period of time in Israel probably for 4-5 years, I don’t know exactly how much time, neither do I care. While my dad was in Israel working, my mom had to take care of me and my brother with a insanely low ammount of money, it was almost impossible to live with that money, imagine having 75 dolars (yes! not even 100 dolars) to live with each month with two kids, it’s not even enough to buy 4-5 breads and some food plus I can say that we were starving.

When my dad came home, he bought me and my brother a playstation, yeah very nice but who cares about objects when you know that your dad was going to spend a important amount of money on alchohol and other stuff even if there were 2 kids and their mother starving?

My dad was not like before. After he came back, he started acting very wierd, extremely agresive and he started geting angry out of any sort of minor and ridiculous reason. Imagine having your boss shouting at you for being late, well do you know how it feels like to be shouted at when you’re only 3-4 years old and have absolutely NO IDEA what life is?
It’s depresing, and even today he has not changed, he is the same man, the same “father” I have always had. Every mistake no matter how small it was, you were the one which got into trouble, for fuck sake! We were only 3-4 years old, we barely knew how to say “mama” and you were screaming at us!? No wonder why we were in such fear. When we had a chocolate or something, we were happy like it was Christmass, for us something like that was rare and my mom was doing absolutely everything she could to make her children happy, of course me and my brother.

My mom is the type of person who would do anything to help people, she is open minded and I have total respect for her. Absolutely total respect for the effort she put to keep the family intact and us. She was the one that offered me and my brother the proper education, the religious view and the connection with God which was later to become more stronger than ever.

She is kind and warm, she did not deserve to have a husband like that, but life has proved to be unfair even with the people which are good.

Everyone makes mistakes.

My friends? Well I grew up with a small group of 4 to 5 friends and we used to play togheter, of course there were more bullies than friends in the neighbournhood waiting to beat you up just because you’re younger than them.

With the time I have grown without knowing that my friends were going to become mostly alchoholics, smokers and even drug addicts later. Over time their behaviour simply changed, we were not those innocent kids anymore, we started to get into more serious stuff and each of us tried to find their path, even today they don’t know which path to follow, other than a life of pain and missery due to their negligence and lack of self respect.

It’s hard to imagine never having one single friend which you can simply trust at least one single true friend. Life has thought me that most close friends are your next worst enemy.

When school started, I had made a friend which I keep in touch with even today, we were in the same class. Our “teacher” was absolutely discriminating me and my friend (classmate) and used to beat us for things we did not do. If my father never dared to beat me not even 1 time, how the hell did this “teacher” have the rights to do it with absolutely no reason!?!?

I would’ve understood if it was “racism”, to be of a different color, but as long as we were a class full of “white” people? There was no racism, just pure discrimination.

Seriously people, racism is for idiots who cannot accept that everyone [no matter what their skin color is] is equal and has rights and it is NOT funny. Discrimination is similar.

Ok, that was in the 1-4th grades, but after that things evolved to the class. The next period of time it was the 5-8th grades.

This time there was no “teacher” discriminating, it was the whole class! Our class teacher was a great woman. she had done everything possible to keep our side, she even risked her job for a class full of idiots. Yes! A class full of idiots! They had absolutely no respect for her! After all that she had done for the class, these monkeys were making fun of her.

I went trough many situations of different types, emotional, stressfull, painfull and fights, insults and discrimination, absolutely everything you did not want to face!

Like it was not enough for my dad to make a scandal out of anything, the school period has been rough and absolutely wrong.

During 2007 (7th grade) I had started to work on my ‘career’ and started learning stuff such as Visual basic 2008 and design then quickly evolved to more complex stuff and game development.

After the 5-8th grades, in the 9th grade and 10th grade (present) I have went trough a lot, but much worse than expected. I was absolutely “on the ground” emotionally, psihically and fizically and had a few friends and went trough repeated stories.

Me and a friend decided to start a band called “Strikeline”. Unfortunately although the band having members, it did not survive for more than a few months. And after the band went down, I decided to work seriously on my first music album.

After a english contest I and my deskmate and my english teacher plus a group of other kids went to Belgium for two weeks. It was absolutely awesome. My deskmate had a rough time due to some pranks, but I think he deserved them for his destructive behaviour. While in Belgium, we visited Netherlands for a day and had a preview of the city of Maastricht.

In Belgium we went in the town of Brussels and Maasmechellen. Basically fun.

The 10th grade has been much better than the 9th grade for me.

On February 1st I have released my first music album independently “Steps of a new life” and I have started working on my second album only 2 months later.

In the 10th grade I have becomed more interested in finding the “one” that I was searching for all my life. IT seems that “the one girl” has proved to be looking for me at the same time.

She asked me out on a date, and I didn’t refuse knowing that she was the one I have always been looking for. After a normal date, at the end a kiss which turned out to be long and very very nice exactly the way I like it. She is the first girl I kissed and the only girl I’ll ever love.

Now me and that girl are togheter and we are absolutely happy and we have a bright future togheter.

For me, knowing that there is someone that loves me, of course my girlfriend, it matters the most to me and I will not let people ruin our relationship.
I want to always be the chosen one for her and always make her happy since she is the only girl that opened the door to my heart and soul.

For me life does have a path, I have discovered that life is hard and every effort and every mistake you do is there to be repaired and to learn from, this way we get our knowledge and discover the hidden paths of our souls and hearts.

My dream has come true, my girlfriend is the one I have always wanted and that I will share my eternal love with.

Next time you think that life sucks, honestly I think you’re right, but for me, life doesn’t suck. I am now happy that I have went trough all that stuff, I have my girlfriend which I will always love, I have plans for a big career and the wisdom I have always wanted, now it’s all just a matter of time until I will become known and probably “rich”, but seriously I don’t care about the money, i plan to use it in good ways not on drugs or alchohol like most people do.

Life has a path for all, you just need to discover your path and follow it.

For me, my girlfriend is the most important person.

Yes, you’ve guessed it.

Saturday – 30/04/2011 is one day i will never forget.

Life is unfair, it doesn’t care most of the time it will be keeping you on the ground, but remember, what’s worst is yet to come, keep your head up and don’t let it bring you down.
I can’t call myself a true artist, because my work is far too less for people to accept myself as a artist, but I’ve seen life’s face, I might be young and only 17, but my mind keeps remembering when all the times I was arround just to be on the ground by people who were just like me, making me think, is this who am I supposed to be?
Those people are worthless, they have no faith, they have nothing to believe in, repeating their own mistakes while they keep you bleeding it’s all fun for them, but when the sun comes out, the light shows their faith.

All my life I’ve been considered a “loser”, a “failure”, a “retard”, a “no life”, and probably a “brainless” man, but the truth is, im none of that, I’ve just followed my path.

Words won’t affect me, fuck them I can talk the shit I want, when someone tries to step on my tail I can show them I’m not that loser they consider walking up the street, they think that they can hit me with a ton of bricks, but fuck them, I’m not taking that shit, I want respect, only those that are worth it will gain my respect.

Hear my words, trust no one, people just like me can stab you right in the back, when the world feels great, it hides a deep secret, what’s coming up next is gonna make you fear it.
Your friends? They are not what they seem, probably one or two of them, but the rest?! Why so many people feel depressed? Is because of their friends which would simply trade them for even a pair of shoes. You closest enemy is your own closest friend.

Let me tell you a secret, I am just like you. I try to forgive them but the pain keeps waving trough, they don’t give a shit about you or me, think about that now or later you’ll see.

Depression? That’s nothing, believe me. That’s just a sick feeling we all come to feel, we don’t admit it, we hide our fears in lies, we sometimes mask it with happiness but good enough to make people think that were ok, but trust me, if you do that, you’re not better than your damn friends. Don’t take that sarcastic I am telling you life is just the ultimate test, you either live through it or you die like the rest.

Why didn’t I have any sort of suicide attempt (not even 1! seriously! not even 1 single attempt) until now if I’m so pissed off on life? It’s simple

SUICIDE IS FOR PUSSYES. If you commit suicide you’ll give your enemy the satisfaction that he’s won, he got rid of you, he pushed you far enough to get to even kill yourself. I’m asking the question : Is it worth IT? No! definately not, come with your feet on the ground and think about what you’ve got, what to expect from the next day, not from the future, only the next day, live your life and watch the present cause the future is just a theory full of illusions.

Don’t try to ignore the words I said, I might look like a depressed man gone insane, but deep inside you feel my words are true, take them as advice don’t let them get trough.

Remember just to keep you head straight up, get up from the ground, show them that you’re not weak.

I’m not sure if i’m wasting my time, but at least I have sources where to learn from.

Further progress might not be posted about the game unless it is entering development.